Describe Your Fantasies

Describe your most recent, persistent, most arousing, or most 'reliably gets me off' sexual fantasy, erotica topic, or porn theme. You don't have to be an erotic story author, in fact you don't even need to use proper grammar. Details help accuracy, but don't get bogged down in it. Even a bare-bones sketch or topic will work.

How does this fantasy make you feel (other than aroused)? What emotions and bodily sensations are you aware of? Do you feel helpless, powerful, loved, angry, safe, cared-for, respected, scared, peaceful, or anything else?

Why do you think this fantasy topic or theme is particularly arousing for you?

Avoid historical answers, such as trauma, past relationships, or parental relationships. Right now, why do you think you get off on the emotions you listed above, regardless of where those feelings came from, regardless of how those feelings ended up linked to your arousal historically.

Another way of asking this question, is what do you think this fantasy means to your unconscious? What does it symbolize?

This is a hard question. You may not have a clear answer, and that's ok. Pause, think about it for a bit, but don't get too hung up on getting it exactly right. Word-vomit whatever comes into your head below. Don't even get too obsessed with my 'non-historical' instruction above. If history keeps coming out despite your best efforts, then just leave it in.

Since many people tend to answer historically, here are examples of non-historical answers:
'Spanking really turns me on because it symbolizes that I'm under his authority and that he has the right to discipline me for breaking rules, or just to keep me in line.'
OR
'Spanking really turns me on because there's a sense of release in the pain, just floating in the sensation. It means a lot to endure that for him, to take the pain so that he can enjoy hurting me. It feels like if he can hurt me that way, he can do anything to me and I'll take it for him.'